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Subject:18, 19, 20 ...
Time:10:24 pm
Humeur actuelle:intimidatedintimidated
Musique actuelle:David Bowie - As the World Falls Down
Holy God...

In a year and a bit I (we all) will be 20. TWENTY. 20 years old! I feel so unaccomplished! ): Does anyone want to help me go out and get a life!?

Go to another country. Go all across Canada. Participate in a festival. Have sex. Go clubbing. See a huge concert of a favourite band. Go to a small lounge to see a favourite band. Spend at least a week immersed in art; painting and learning and creating. Spend at least a week reading; books that have been on my shelves for years, reading classics and learning and growing. Donate blood regularly. Do an extreme sport, like sky diving. Get a domain and maintain a website. Spend days just watching all my Buffy DVDs. Redesign my room, incorporating a full length work space table. Tailor an authentic Victorian dress for myself from fashion plates. Intern at really cool jobs. Volunteer abroad.

...

I don't know, what do interesting, life-fulfilling youth do? I don't want to be doing what I am now and be who I am now forever. I want to DO things. GO places.

Fuck. 20.
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dark_love
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Time:2005-03-10 05:07 am (UTC)
DO things. I would do things with you there are things I would LOVE to experience with you. I felt the same way so short ago, and then so much happened all at once that I barely even stop to think about that.

But I think that life is fulfilling .. if you're happy. I mean most people our age don't get to do most of those things, not until they are older, have more freedom, have more money. 20 is still young compared to our grandparents, and our parents, and aunts uncles and probably cousins who knows.

Someday you'll come with me to some random country. Maybe we'll just get on a plane someday and go, and we won't know where, and we won't know why, we just will.

Who knows. :) *kiss*
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tm_gemini
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Time:2005-03-12 04:50 am (UTC)
Indeed. I just feel/felt stressed and frusterated and in a rut. I feel like I haven't done anything with myself and every day blurs together. And I have to do this for another 3 and a half years, at least. I just don't want to be where I am now, then. There is a lot about my life I would like to remove, and a lot of things I would like to incorporate.

I need spontenaity and motivation and free-spiritedness.

Baby steps, I guess. ^____^

Holy crap, let's get on a plane! We need to pick a date, spin a globe and DO IT! Or just go up to a random gate and get a ticket. And bring as many friends as possible. d:
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melange_fiesta
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Time:2005-03-12 07:45 pm (UTC)
I have felt exactly like you do, about the rut and no freedom of anything, for quite awhile now. I seriously think I need some element of change or I might eventually go crazy. Plus, last year was the first summer in which I did not leave Mt. Pearl once; in other summers I had at least gone to Campbellton and cabins with my family, and for a few years previous to that I had travelled places, even if not during the summer. I miss that a lot.

I would so come on a random trip to somewhere cool. XD
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tm_gemini
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Time:2005-03-12 09:30 pm (UTC)
Hmm, no wonder there are bars on campus. ^___^ The majority of the student body just has to go do something. >.<

Maybe I should take this summer off... or only do 2 or 3 courses. And then do lots of other things that do not inolve my house or MUN. Things that aren't all fixed and needing commitment.

I think my main problem is me wasting my time, so that I only feel like I am being alternatively slacking/lazy and rushed/busy, which does not lead to feeling good about onself.
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onecorkiecookie
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Time:2005-03-28 08:47 am (UTC)
Labyrinth , Good soundtrack , great movie!
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